Another day, another month

Well hello March! I still can't believe February is gone :( time is flying by and sometimes I wonder if I am really  living my life to the fullest. Either way, I am super grateful to be able to live another day, I am grateful that I am able to breath, think, love, see, eat etc.

Today, the school campus was shut down by student protesters against budget cuts, therefore, I did not go to school. I am a third year and I've been wanting to attend one of those rallies but sometimes I wonder "does that really help or am I being pessimistic" Whatever the answer might be, props to the people who are trying to make a change.

There are so many things in my mind that I wish I could write about them here but I won't, it would take me a long time. BUT what I can say is that I am super excited about this weekend. My two best friends are coming over tomorrow (Friday) to celebrate my housemate's birthday :) We'll see how that goes, I am super ready to meet new people and dance the night away.

Lastly, I want to finish by writing a few facts about me & my life (i guess)....

1. (personally) i think i'm a very nice person; i don't easily nor too often do i say "no" to somebody...i need to learn though.
2. i doubt myself a little too much
3. i have the best friends ever (they're both guys!) and i don't know what i would do without them!
4. i am a big believer
5. i believe people deserve second chances (it is better to forgive and forget!)

what are some facts about yourself??

LIFE

Where to begin hmmm life is such a simple yet complicated subject. Some people try to make the best of life, others live one day at a time without looking at the past or the future while others like to plan ahead and/or learn from their mistakes. I think I do a little bit of everything. However, as beautiful as life can be, horrible things can happen that makes us the person that we are today. Yesterday, I found out some terrible news. My best friend's sister has cancer. I can imagine his pain because my grandma passed away because of that horrible disease, and 'till this day I still miss her very much. It sucks that I can't do much to help him and though I've met his sister once or twice I know she's a nice person and I'm sure she gives her all for her family. Nonetheless, I still think we all should live our life to the max no matter what gets in the way, though I know how hard it can be to receive news like the ones my best friend told me. My heart goes out to him, his sister and family.....

"whatever tomorrow brings i'll be there."

much love,

L.

Sunny Saturday

Finally a beautiful weekend in the beautiful town of Santa Cruz, Ca. Today my dear friend lily and I went on a picnic (one which we had planned a long time ago). Though we knew we wanted to go on a picnic/photo shoot we didn't know exactly when since this quarter we've both been busy with school and what not. So, we decided to take a break from our studies and went to buy some Mexican food and then drove to Natural Bridges State Beach to hang out and take some pics! At first we were super cold and I don't know why we didn't take extra sweaters or a blanket but once we started moving around for our shoot, we started to warm up :)
SO, here are some pics.....

picnic basket that my dad got me at a garage sale! 

drinks

lily's super cute outfit 

my outfit 

owl tattoo :)

beautiful sun set 

lily's cool ring that her sister made

this ring lily made it!

and finally time go to 

overall i had a fun time hanging out with my dear friend, however, she hasn't been able to fix her bike so we couldn't bike there like we usually do but hopefully next time. for now, enjoy the rest of your weekend and make the best of it...and always, always, take lots of pics! :)

p.s: pictures taken by yours truly (& lily)..... oh and i MIGHT post some more pics later, but not sure yet.

xoxo,

L

Kurt Cobain's Birthday and other things

SO, yesterday was Kurt Cobain's birthday (Nirvana's front man) and I totally forgot even though I have a HUGE poster of him on my wall *nervous laugh* Today he would have been 45 years old but unfortunately he passed away at a very young age because of an overdose. However, I rather remember him for the great artist that he was; That's how we should remember people.

in short HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY Kurt! :)

Moving on...This year's resolution was the same one as last year and the year before that: work out & get in shape. The perks of living in a nice apartment area is having a gym across from my apartment--though relatively small. So far I have been to the gym less than 10 times. I don't know where this obsession of losing weight came from and it hurts to say that as much as I want to lose weight, i keep eating (my feelings) away but i just have to accept the fact that i'm never going to look the way models do because truth is i don't want to look like them. I want to look like myself but just be more healthy (and in shape). 

we can all look this fabulous! 

& this sexy ;)

for now, have a lovely night & remember to stay true to yourself no matter what

over & out,

L.

Weekend

This weekend was lots of fun! Though I didn't do anything over the top I enjoyed my time at home with family and best friends....here are some pictures :)

father & son (my bother & nephew)

pan dulce :)

my nephew seems to love playing with dog's food haha 

geico <3

dad doing the dishes :D

little sister's fashion statement.... i love that she's just being herself & not some one that she's not

her new bow...she loves bows!! 

danny being sneaky 

finally i got him to smile :)

best friends <3

dad's plants 

i hope all of you guys enjoyed the long weekend as much as i did! now let's hope for a fun rest of the week!

xoxo,

L.

Forgive & Forget

i feel like lately i've been holding on so many emotions & i'm ready to let them out. i still don't get how i can live with someone who is fake, antisocial and inconsiderate....at least that's the person she has become to me. i don't know if i should feel bad for not giving her the chance to talk to me but at the same time she did not take the initiative to talk to me and welcoming me into a new place that i'm supposed to call home. i am talking about one of my housemates. me and her don't really talk and when she talks to me she sounds so fake and i just don't try to keep up or get into a conversation. i am usually a friendly person and i don't know where all this anger is coming from. i am mad at myself, i am mad at the world and i am mad at the people who i love or once loved.

 i don't understand how someone you (or i) cared so much for just disappears and appears in my life whenever they want to. in this case i am talking about a specific someone. i need to learn how to forgive, move on and let go of someone who i thought was "mine." i think that made me so pessimistic when it comes to love. i also don't get how i can live life with that person in the back of my mind, i just don't get it but i think i will get it once i get answers to my questions but who am i kidding that is NEVER going to happen. i think so far in my 20 years in this living world i've only had one shot at love and i am not sure if i blew it but then again i was in high school, but isn't high school where you get into the whole dating scene? well that was totally NOT the case for me. i am  mad at that person even though i know i shouldn't and even\though i know i'm really not. i miss this person like crazy but i just don't show it. he's gone and i need to accept that. he is gone for good and he is probably living his life without me crossing his mind, not even for a second...of that i'm sure. i feel so pathetic but that's just me and i need to deal with it.

some people are just not worth it. some people are not worth my friendship. i am too nice to be surrounded by careless & selfish people. i have faith that one day i will find my kurt cobain kind of guy or my jim morrison or perhaps my tom gabel who knows. for now i'll just keep dreaming, dreaming until my dreams come true...hopefully <3

nite!

L.

Good bye January, Hello February

Hello bloggers/readers,

Can you believe we're on the month of February already? WELL, I really can't! January passed by like nothing and I must say, it was quite a month (though nothing too interesting happened). Every day that passes by I learn more and ore about myself and at times it frustrates me but at times I'm glad I get to find out new things about me. This year I hope to do a lot of things that I wished I did past years. So far, this new year has been great. I am enjoying my classes and I have no doubt in my mind what I want to do once I graduate. My education class has inspired me so much that I don't really mind that it's late in the afternoon and I have to go to class; I actually look forward to learning more about education though learning the TRUTH about it sometimes hurts. 

ANYWAY, I cannot cannot wait for spring break. My friend and I decided we needed to try/do different things this year SO this weekend we are booking out tickets to MIAMI and perhaps get tanned? :) I am super excited since I've never been outside of California. Hopefully this trip will bring us even more closer together plus getting away from the same environment, routine and people is very much needed. At this point, I don't care how much in debt I am going to be after I graduate because I want to be able to look back in time and say "Man, I had fun in college!" haha

I must say, I am very lucky to be surrounded by magnificent people (friends, family, peers etc). My life couldn't be any better without them, I love them all!! 

 

With that being said, I want you all to just enjoy life regardless of the up's and the down's because in reality, those up's and down's is what makes life that much more exciting and worth living. I know at times I take every day that goes by for granted but I learn from those mistakes. We're all human after all, right?

There's always that light at the end of the tunnel waiting for us...

xoxo,

L