Young and bored

Lost, misplaced , perplexed yet enlightened in the four corners of a bedroom. One's personal space, habitat, surrounding environment, the atmosphere begins to eat away, consume at our every thought and emotion. Amused by the nothingness that covers our plane white walls. We wonder, ponder.. wait patiently as our life passively floats away, drifts to a nothingness, memory, false impression, never to be remembered. 

Deal with the inner struggles of teenage boredom. Contemplating the disappointing, endless, undemanding, existence of the upper middle class. While avoiding battling through the 'slings and arrows of life', inner peace is found in drugs and magazines. As the illusions, the figments of our imagination, provide a disturbing comfort, that temporarily gives us the pleasure we so desperately seek, that which is life.

p.s: i stumbled upon this wise words while watching a youtube video and i found them pretty inspirational & i thought it would be cool to share :)

XO,

L

Thought Machine

Man where to begin?! I feel like I have A LOT to say hmmmm

let’s see

 Dead week is here and I feel like I have so much work to do! Ah!! I think because finals are just around the corner and I need to study…bleh!

            

             I don’t know why I can’ get over my fear of speaking in public! Tomorrow (Thursday) I have a presentation and I am freaking out! I do so much better when I present in Spanish than in English--yay for not being a native speaker of English! -______-

              I can’t wait to go home (Bay Area!) so I can eat my momma’s delicious food :d
 

      I am just loving this weather! I know i complain sometimes but I just love it--though I miss those rain dances with my dear friend lily :(

      You know spring is around the corner when the weather is this weird but especially when you start seeing deer around campus! :D

     

       can't wait to go see the Hunger Games with my little sister and her friends (should be interesting)

n      And finally i want to scream at the top of my lungs AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!! damn you frustration and stress and anxiety and everything else that makes me weak and sad and useless! but I shall pull through :)

spring spring spring!!!

xoxo

L <3

can i just disappear for a bit?

i feel so overwhelm and i don't know why--or maybe i do know. i just want to disappear for a while and not worry about anything...perhaps that's what i'll do for the rest of the quarter.....

the song that takes me to a different place.

L.

DREAMS

Have you ever wonder what dreams really mean or what they really are or how they happen? I know I have. I feel like I dream a lot. Some dreams are just weird, others are funny and some are creepy/scary. It's like you have to read between the lines in order to unravel the real meaning behind them because they're just too damn complex! And last night's dream was no exception--though I can't really tell what it was all about because I hardly remember. That's another thing I dislike about dreams; you either remember them or you don't. And for some odd reason there's dreams where random people you've never seen before are involved! I wish I knew what it all means. Long story short, I had a dream and I have two options: either take it as a sign of hope OR take it as 'Move the F** On!!' kind of dream. 

But, regardless of the message, I very much love to dream :)

Pretty Day, Pretty Girl

Well today was such a beautiful day in the beautiful town of Santa Cruz. I didn't really want to go to class, I wanted to be at the beach enjoying the sun but oh well. It was overall a wonderful day and that is why I decided to let my hair down, wore my contacts (i'm blind haha), out on my orange-e/peachy blouse, jeans, and sandals. I felt pretty and confident since lately I've been wearing jeans and T-shirt because the weather has been weird lately and I don't know what to expect.

When I got to my Spanish class two people complemented me. Surprisingly, I took the compliments pretty well because they felt very sincere plus they boosted my confidence. At times I take for granted the fact that I'm a woman and I can take the time to look pretty without over doing it. However, some girls try too hard or maybe I don't try hard enough. Nonetheless, all women are beautiful inside and out but at the same time it is not always about beauty but also about having a nice personality and a big heart.

i'm pretty sure we've all seen this before BUT it's a good reminder 

xoxo,

L

The Weekend & Some Owl Thoughts

The weekend has come and gone and I am still super tired. Friday was super fun with best friends from back home, friends from here and new people that I met. I will never forget Friday =D Though the rest of the weekend wasn't as productive as I hoped, I still enjoyed some me time in my pj's and messy hair. Today, Sunday, was such a beautiful day out, however, I didn't get the chance to go out and enjoy the weather :( but I am looking forward to the spring break and summer and I can't wait to start making new memories!

On another note, I started thinking again how much I love owls! (though I don't want to grow to be known the crazy owl lady). I just love the way they are, how they're super mysterious and in a way misunderstood. They are always linked to evil and scary stuff but I just think they are beautiful. They are smart, and have great night vision. I actually have an owl tattoo and I love the fact that these creatures can have multiple meanings but every person makes their own meaning, any person that likes owls as much as I do have different reasons for liking them.

In the near future I would want to get another owl tattoo but this time a little smaller. I guess it's true when people say that, once you get your first tattoo you're going to want more xD but tattoos are more than just that. They are art and for the most part they have a meaning. Sometimes people judge those with tattoos (especially women) but the truth is, we can do what we please with our bodies and if tattoos are going to help us remember a special even, person, memory etc then by all means go for it and get a tattoo (but make sure not to regret it later on).

i would want to get something like this... (just the head)

but first i need to get this one 100% done

finally, how was YOUR weekend? anything exciting and/or new??

xoxo,

L

Another day, another month

Well hello March! I still can't believe February is gone :( time is flying by and sometimes I wonder if I am really  living my life to the fullest. Either way, I am super grateful to be able to live another day, I am grateful that I am able to breath, think, love, see, eat etc.

Today, the school campus was shut down by student protesters against budget cuts, therefore, I did not go to school. I am a third year and I've been wanting to attend one of those rallies but sometimes I wonder "does that really help or am I being pessimistic" Whatever the answer might be, props to the people who are trying to make a change.

There are so many things in my mind that I wish I could write about them here but I won't, it would take me a long time. BUT what I can say is that I am super excited about this weekend. My two best friends are coming over tomorrow (Friday) to celebrate my housemate's birthday :) We'll see how that goes, I am super ready to meet new people and dance the night away.

Lastly, I want to finish by writing a few facts about me & my life (i guess)....

1. (personally) i think i'm a very nice person; i don't easily nor too often do i say "no" to somebody...i need to learn though.
2. i doubt myself a little too much
3. i have the best friends ever (they're both guys!) and i don't know what i would do without them!
4. i am a big believer
5. i believe people deserve second chances (it is better to forgive and forget!)

what are some facts about yourself??