It is 10:29pm, 29 minutes passed by bedtime...yes i go to sleep quite early, but, somethings have been on my mind for quite a while. LOVE. What is love exactly? When I think of the word love, I think of couples walking down the street, holding hands, a kiss here and there. However, love is more than that. Love comes from family, friends and even pets! We find love in the things that makes us happy, whatever that might be. And I must say, I feel really loved! I love my major, I love my family and I have amazing friends but sometimes I feel like I need a different kind of love. The kind of love that comes from that significant other. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to find that significant other. I am starting to think that I am cursed, that I'm a hopeless romantic, or that I am not good enough to deserve my better half. I've been listening to sad love songs nonstop....so not fun! I am simply torturing myself. My patience is slowly fading away...wait, what patience? My mom keeps bugging me with comments like "when are you going to have a boyfriend?" or "I think it's time for you to get a boyfriend so you can feel more at ease" blah blah blah (Believe me mom, I really want a boyfriend too!) Not to sound desperate but, I am a 20 year old college student who has not have her first kiss, date or boyfriend (BUT I am not ashamed to say so).
Love will come to me, love will find me, love will not give up on me. It is silly how I can talk about my crush nonstop, or how my friends and I can talk about boys and how complicated they can be but truth is, at times, I am happy to be single because love is something that shouldn't be rushed. In order for love to find us, we first need to love ourselves (which something that I am currently working on!). Some people have told me that I am better off without a guy but that is because they have already experienced the whole dating thing, I have not. Truth be told, I am afraid of committing or getting too attached to the person. When people last a long time is because they keep the love alive, but at times they last a long time because they're just used to each other. Some things are not meant to be, some things are not meant to last and people just gotta move on.
I guess it is true when people say that a person might be the one for you, but you might not be the one for them (or something like that). Point is, love will find us, there is no need to rush because this life is too short to see it disappear in a blink of an eye.
Love is love, love is complicated, love is beautiful, love is confusing, love is family, love is friends, love is every breath we take, love is us. Simple as that.
<3,
L.
p.s: please excuse my spelling mistakes :)
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