Where did I go wrong?

I had an appointment with my college adviser to make sure I'm on the right track to graduate (two more quarters and i'll be done!!). Everything was going great; I was talking to her about my possible plans after I graduate and she seemed as stoked as I was until....she decided to rain on my fucken parade! I am aware my g.p.a is low and I am also aware that graduate schools look at our grades and our GPA. I have come a long way for someone that doesn't even know me tell what what I already know I need to do in order to raise my GPA. She said "I see that you are really serious about graduate school but we need to work on this " *pointing at my GPA* and I told her that I was aware and that I was pretty close and to that she said "well 2.89 is not that close, you would have to get straight A's to get to a 3.0 at least.." REALLY??? REALLY??? thank you so fucken much for have a little bit of fucken faith in me. I gotta say, i feel pretty fucke proud of myself as I have come a long way and I'm still here and graduating pretty soon. I must be doing something right, don't you think? Well thanks very ,uch for making feel like shit as if I didn't have enough with how hard I am on myself. I am not afraid to say that I have failed many classes. I am not afraid to say that I have struggled and I still do. College is not easy. Please put yourself in my shoes (if you don't go to college). Things don't come easy to me. I am not smart, I just try my best to learn and get by. As of now, she crushed me but if I know I want to go to graduate school then i fucken will because i know what i want to do with my life.....I still want to know how I've made it this far but at times it doesn't matter. I have failed and I am not scared to say it. I just wish people wouldn't be so judgmental. Just because I am in college does not mean I am perfect and it does not mean I know everything. Be kind to one another, support one another. If you have friends/family/relatives in college and are or are not struggling just support them and be there for them in their journey. Being in college has made me grumpy, sad, anti social, tired, physically and spiritually weak/tired and I am trying to make it through and I've been doing a good job at it, I just don't let people know how I feel. My parents don't know and neither do my brothers and even close friends. I am alone in this journey (in a way) because at times people can't really understand my pain and what I am going through. All i know is that I am doing it and I am truly trying :)

Feeding the mind..

I just read a blog that made me think and realize many many things. First, I wonder why I don't take the time to do intellectual stuff like read for fun, read the newspaper, keep up with the latest news as opposed to the latest gossip. Why can't I read a whole article about what's going on in in the middle east without getting bored or wanting to search for the latest celebrity news. This is one thing I hate about myself and  I do admit to it. Many people have lost their hope in humanity because of the stupid shit we are capable of doing, all the stupid stuff that can get us our 15 minutes of fame.

I think this should be my new year's resolution: try to read more and learn more about the world and what's going on. I want to crave learning. I'm in college for god's sake, I should be motivated to learn!!

My friend posted a quote from the blog and a link. I loved the quote so I went on to read the blog. This person blogged about sexuality, a topic we all know well (or so I hope we do). And it is true what he said, why do we have to base everything in our sexuality? Why can't we love whoever we want? Why can't we change/shift roles once in a while? What if man stayed home and women went to work? I mean I'm sure nowadays some men are stay-home-dads but I'm sure not that many. I still don't understand why we can't break away from the biases and norms society has put up.

This reminds me of the time my mom told me she wanted me to marry someone who went to college. I mean sure that's always nice, but what if I fall in love with someone who works at a retail store or as a waiter? Why does it matter whether he graduated high school or if he went to college? I mean I'm all about education but why can't I be the provider? Why can't I take on the male role? What if one day unexpectedly I fall for a girl? DOES THAT REALLY MATTER? My mom says she has nothing against gay people, and I believe her. I have a cousin who is gay and my uncle (my mom's brother is also gay) but she doesn't think it's right or proper to be with a guy and then fall for a girl.

The quote my friend posted is the following:
"without stomping on anybody's sexual preference or history, I wonder what would happen we stopped thinking in terms of sexuality all together. What if we inhabited a cultural space where people's sexuality or gender was fluid, where you could be dating someone of a different gender one day and then up and decide, hey, you want to do this other thing now--without being ridiculed, guilted, or made to identify? What if we removed all the labels and just explored human sensations?"

Whether we agree or disagree about this, I am sure we all agree on one thing: Love is wonderful, we're all looking for that special someone. I don't think it's bad to have thought about what it would be like to be with someone of the same sex, I don't think that makes someone gay. I know I have thought about it and I also know that I have liked someone of my same sex. SO WHAT? Nonetheless, I do fear that if at some point in my life I find a girl whom I love and feel a connection with that I wouldn't know how to break it down to my parents  (though I know they'll understand, it's never that simple).

With this being said, have a lovely night and be free to love whoever you want. I know I won't judge :)

link to the blog: http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/is-heterosexuality-real/#PDL3EDrKdyFvfQsu.99

of life lately....

Why is life so tricky? Am i the only one suffering? (Yeah, I doubt it.) I have always tried to be the best friend that i can, the best listener and the best advice giver. I have always tried to be there for my friends whether from far away or close by, right there with them. However, I've realized i'm a hypocrite. Even when i think i'm the nicest person and even when i try to be selfless, i still fail as a friend. I have been talking to someone (a boy!) for the past two months now and he is all i ever think of lately. My friend made it crystal clear to me even if she didn't say it directly but it was implied: I am a HORRIBLE friend. I feel like when a love interest appears in someone's life that's all they think of and just wanna spend time with them. I mean, who wouldn't. The two of you are getting to know each other, trying to find things in common, trying to find out whether it could possibly be something else than friendship. I live in santa cruz and i try to go home on the weekends (but not that often). The times that i've gone, i've hung out with this particular person that i forgot about my friends whom always ask me when i'm going to be in town. the friends whom i have told i'll hangout with them because i haven't seen them in forever. Yeah, that never happened. Does that make me a bad friend? Or is it something that is bound to happen given that i've never had a boyfriend. I don't know this is all confusing. My friendship with my friends is confusing, my relationship with this guy is confusing. One day I am completely in "love" with him, and the next day it can completely change. We are not exclusive yet we're not seeing other people. I honestly don't know where we stand. Are we dating? Are we just casually hanging out? Does he want to be more than a friend? Why is he so damn shy??!

I feel like i'm over-thinking the situation--like i always do--but i just can't help it. If it feels right, would't you find a way to make it happen?? It is 2012, why am i still waiting for him to make a move?

I don't want to lose my friends over someone who it is hard to say i really know. I need space, i need time to breathe....so much in my mind......

trying new things....

For some reason, I have always been afraid of trying new things  but i always end up doing them. I like to be spontaneous and though i think my life can be pretty boring i still end up having fun. Nonetheless, there are things that you can only do once because you end up not digging them. My friend's birthday was this past Thursday and she wanted to go to the club to celebrate, so we did. After going i realized that clubs aren't really what i'm all about, yeah i had fun but there were things i didn't like. For starters, this business of being a girl is not easy at all since there are a lot of components that come a long with our gender. For the past few years i've been trying to change the way i dress, be a little more girly and i must say it's been a challenge (haha). Two, wearing high heals is just not fun at all, i mean it takes practice but i just hate it! and three, there a lot of guys that just go to the club to hit on girls and check them out. I much rather go to concerts where nobody really cares how you're dress, what brand you are wearing etc etc.....I don't regret going because i truly had fun and i'm glad i'm being more open when it comes to trying new things because life is all about taking risks :)

I just hope i can remain myself in the process of growing up  

Everlong...

It's been months and months since i last blogged and i am having a hard time trying to figure out why and where i left off. I felt like i was using blogging as a diary (at times), i also felt like i was writing about the same things time and time again. But i guess those are issues/topics that matter to me so why over think it... who knows...

So much going on in my life thus far and i must say the feeling is overwhelming for reasons i cannot explain. A good friend of mine asked why i stopped blogging and he suggested i should start again....so here it is.

This is just the beginning of a semi-new chapter in my short and uneventful life.

let's start all over, shall we?

have a swell night! 

<3

Is it too late?

Keeping up with a blog can be hard (at least for me). I really enjoy reading other people's blogs and I can tell they take the time to update it as much--and often-- as possible. As much as I would want to make my blog public and by public I mean share it with friends and/or family, I don't know how I would feel or react to their reactions about my blog and what I write. Because of this, I much rather pretend there's somebody out there that I don't know that is reading or reads my blogs and it doesn't matter if they follow me or leave a comment, what matters is that they read it. I have so much in mind and I don't even know where to start or talk about next.

My third year in college is soon coming to an end (in 3 weeks or so!) and for once I wish time could slow down. I feel like I have learned to managed my time a little better but I feel like I fell short. I always doubt myself and always feels like I could have gone the extra mile. Oh well, no regrets I guess I have to learn from my mistakes (which I make too much of). Sometimes I feel it's a little too late to start all over or to fix certain things or to realize my mistakes...I don't know. This college business is a drag. About 85% of the time I feel, like I just want to sleep. But don't get me wrong, I am very much enjoying college but in a different way I guess. I am always complaining or thinking about what I'm going to do after I graduate or stressing about the fact that I've never had a boyfriend or that I've never been kissed. I am getting "old" and I have not experience what I think should have experienced a long time ago. It's just so sad that college has made me a little anti-social. Back home I have guy friends, in fact, my two best friends are guys, but here, I feel like I can hardly speak when I'm around a guy whether I think he's attractive or not and I just don't get why. 

I have always considered myself a super friendly person and outgoing. But now I feel hostile and full or hate (somewhat). Girls can be vicious (no, I did not just realize that) and guys can be a**holes. I am no way near perfect and I know I can be one of those vicious girls but I blame it on society (or should I?). I mean why can we all get along-- I don't care if this is hippie talk but why can't we? Nowadays we think too much about what people might think of us (yes, we do and I know it's hard to accept that) and we have to learn to let go of all that negativity. Just yesterday I came to an agreement with myself. I love to eat and no one is going to change that but me and I don't want to change that. I love my body and if I really wanted to be skinny like the models in a magazine I would have done that a long time ago. But I haven't. 

This world is constantly changing and I am not going to miss on all the wonderful things that one day might not exists. For now, I am going to take a trip back to the 60's and live so carefree and in harmony with myself and the people around me. Like my friend says karma will take care of those that are/were mean to us. My conscience is free of guilt. I know who I am and I don't want to pretend to be anybody else. 

With this said, I hope you all had a great long weekend because I know I sure did ;)

xoxo,

L.

I miss....

I miss going to the beach at night

I miss the sunset

I miss the sunrise

I miss myself

I miss going on random hikes on random days at random times

I miss riding my bike

I miss going on photoshoots

I miss going on little adventures

I miss feeling so carefree

I miss feeling young

I miss talking about boys

I miss talking about love

I miss laughing over silly little things

I miss life. 

It's May, heeeey!!

I can't believe we're already in the month of May! time is flying by and summer is around the corner oh and school is almost over! :) who knows what this month has in store for me but i know i'm just gonna go with it or do something about it...hopefully.

xoxo,

L.

it's been a while

this is what i hate about myself; i start blogging and then all of a sudden i stop. it is not because i don't have things to write about it's just that sometimes i don't feel like sharing my feelings (i mean i don't have to) or i just feel  like i could be writing more interesting things. but now i'm back no matter what i write about.

at this point i have  lots of things to say and i don't even know where to start hehe :)

ok so i've been going to the gym for about 3 weeks now and i must say i feel pretty proud of myself and though i know it takes time to see results i am still not happy with myself (old news, sadly) but again i am proud that i have been committed. i've been going with a friend and i enjoy working out with her because she pushes me. feeling so tired makes me feel so good. i never knew that soreness could feel this good. i guess somewhat i am starting to see changes but again it takes time and patience and determination is key. i guess i just have to stick around a while longer and see where this ride takes me.

as for school, well, not much to say. nothing but complaints :( it just seems to get harder and harder but i know i just have to push myself and give it my all. but don't you feel like sometimes doing just that is not enough? i know i've been feeling that way lately. college has changed me and my habits in good and bad ways but that's the beauty of life i guess...change.

up until today i am happy with the life i am living no matter the ups and downs. we are born, we grow, we learn, we change, we make mistakes, we see people come in and out of our lives and at the end of the day we are our own companion. i believe in second chances and we should learn to forgive and forget and move on.

for now, this is all i have to say and i promise to try my best to update my blog more often

adios amigos,

L.

Sister Week

My little sister came to Santa Cruz to spend her spring break with me :) I was so happy to have her around and spending some quality time together but she's gone now and I feel so lonely :( we got to talk, we went to the movies (to see The Hunger Games- my third and her second time seeing it!!), went to the boardwalk and just hung out like any other day. Again, I was so glad to have her around since I hardly get to see her now that I'm in college. She's so talented, smart and beautiful and I could't be any more proud of her. Talking about her makes me a little nostalgic (for reasons I can't say here) but I know that she's gonna grow up to be a wonder person.

she will forever be my little sister <3

L.

Young and bored

Lost, misplaced , perplexed yet enlightened in the four corners of a bedroom. One's personal space, habitat, surrounding environment, the atmosphere begins to eat away, consume at our every thought and emotion. Amused by the nothingness that covers our plane white walls. We wonder, ponder.. wait patiently as our life passively floats away, drifts to a nothingness, memory, false impression, never to be remembered. 

Deal with the inner struggles of teenage boredom. Contemplating the disappointing, endless, undemanding, existence of the upper middle class. While avoiding battling through the 'slings and arrows of life', inner peace is found in drugs and magazines. As the illusions, the figments of our imagination, provide a disturbing comfort, that temporarily gives us the pleasure we so desperately seek, that which is life.

p.s: i stumbled upon this wise words while watching a youtube video and i found them pretty inspirational & i thought it would be cool to share :)

XO,

L

Thought Machine

Man where to begin?! I feel like I have A LOT to say hmmmm

let’s see

 Dead week is here and I feel like I have so much work to do! Ah!! I think because finals are just around the corner and I need to study…bleh!

            

             I don’t know why I can’ get over my fear of speaking in public! Tomorrow (Thursday) I have a presentation and I am freaking out! I do so much better when I present in Spanish than in English--yay for not being a native speaker of English! -______-

              I can’t wait to go home (Bay Area!) so I can eat my momma’s delicious food :d
 

      I am just loving this weather! I know i complain sometimes but I just love it--though I miss those rain dances with my dear friend lily :(

      You know spring is around the corner when the weather is this weird but especially when you start seeing deer around campus! :D

     

       can't wait to go see the Hunger Games with my little sister and her friends (should be interesting)

n      And finally i want to scream at the top of my lungs AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!! damn you frustration and stress and anxiety and everything else that makes me weak and sad and useless! but I shall pull through :)

spring spring spring!!!

xoxo

L <3

can i just disappear for a bit?

i feel so overwhelm and i don't know why--or maybe i do know. i just want to disappear for a while and not worry about anything...perhaps that's what i'll do for the rest of the quarter.....

the song that takes me to a different place.

L.

DREAMS

Have you ever wonder what dreams really mean or what they really are or how they happen? I know I have. I feel like I dream a lot. Some dreams are just weird, others are funny and some are creepy/scary. It's like you have to read between the lines in order to unravel the real meaning behind them because they're just too damn complex! And last night's dream was no exception--though I can't really tell what it was all about because I hardly remember. That's another thing I dislike about dreams; you either remember them or you don't. And for some odd reason there's dreams where random people you've never seen before are involved! I wish I knew what it all means. Long story short, I had a dream and I have two options: either take it as a sign of hope OR take it as 'Move the F** On!!' kind of dream. 

But, regardless of the message, I very much love to dream :)

Pretty Day, Pretty Girl

Well today was such a beautiful day in the beautiful town of Santa Cruz. I didn't really want to go to class, I wanted to be at the beach enjoying the sun but oh well. It was overall a wonderful day and that is why I decided to let my hair down, wore my contacts (i'm blind haha), out on my orange-e/peachy blouse, jeans, and sandals. I felt pretty and confident since lately I've been wearing jeans and T-shirt because the weather has been weird lately and I don't know what to expect.

When I got to my Spanish class two people complemented me. Surprisingly, I took the compliments pretty well because they felt very sincere plus they boosted my confidence. At times I take for granted the fact that I'm a woman and I can take the time to look pretty without over doing it. However, some girls try too hard or maybe I don't try hard enough. Nonetheless, all women are beautiful inside and out but at the same time it is not always about beauty but also about having a nice personality and a big heart.

i'm pretty sure we've all seen this before BUT it's a good reminder 

xoxo,

L

The Weekend & Some Owl Thoughts

The weekend has come and gone and I am still super tired. Friday was super fun with best friends from back home, friends from here and new people that I met. I will never forget Friday =D Though the rest of the weekend wasn't as productive as I hoped, I still enjoyed some me time in my pj's and messy hair. Today, Sunday, was such a beautiful day out, however, I didn't get the chance to go out and enjoy the weather :( but I am looking forward to the spring break and summer and I can't wait to start making new memories!

On another note, I started thinking again how much I love owls! (though I don't want to grow to be known the crazy owl lady). I just love the way they are, how they're super mysterious and in a way misunderstood. They are always linked to evil and scary stuff but I just think they are beautiful. They are smart, and have great night vision. I actually have an owl tattoo and I love the fact that these creatures can have multiple meanings but every person makes their own meaning, any person that likes owls as much as I do have different reasons for liking them.

In the near future I would want to get another owl tattoo but this time a little smaller. I guess it's true when people say that, once you get your first tattoo you're going to want more xD but tattoos are more than just that. They are art and for the most part they have a meaning. Sometimes people judge those with tattoos (especially women) but the truth is, we can do what we please with our bodies and if tattoos are going to help us remember a special even, person, memory etc then by all means go for it and get a tattoo (but make sure not to regret it later on).

i would want to get something like this... (just the head)

but first i need to get this one 100% done

finally, how was YOUR weekend? anything exciting and/or new??

xoxo,

L

Another day, another month

Well hello March! I still can't believe February is gone :( time is flying by and sometimes I wonder if I am really  living my life to the fullest. Either way, I am super grateful to be able to live another day, I am grateful that I am able to breath, think, love, see, eat etc.

Today, the school campus was shut down by student protesters against budget cuts, therefore, I did not go to school. I am a third year and I've been wanting to attend one of those rallies but sometimes I wonder "does that really help or am I being pessimistic" Whatever the answer might be, props to the people who are trying to make a change.

There are so many things in my mind that I wish I could write about them here but I won't, it would take me a long time. BUT what I can say is that I am super excited about this weekend. My two best friends are coming over tomorrow (Friday) to celebrate my housemate's birthday :) We'll see how that goes, I am super ready to meet new people and dance the night away.

Lastly, I want to finish by writing a few facts about me & my life (i guess)....

1. (personally) i think i'm a very nice person; i don't easily nor too often do i say "no" to somebody...i need to learn though.
2. i doubt myself a little too much
3. i have the best friends ever (they're both guys!) and i don't know what i would do without them!
4. i am a big believer
5. i believe people deserve second chances (it is better to forgive and forget!)

what are some facts about yourself??

LIFE

Where to begin hmmm life is such a simple yet complicated subject. Some people try to make the best of life, others live one day at a time without looking at the past or the future while others like to plan ahead and/or learn from their mistakes. I think I do a little bit of everything. However, as beautiful as life can be, horrible things can happen that makes us the person that we are today. Yesterday, I found out some terrible news. My best friend's sister has cancer. I can imagine his pain because my grandma passed away because of that horrible disease, and 'till this day I still miss her very much. It sucks that I can't do much to help him and though I've met his sister once or twice I know she's a nice person and I'm sure she gives her all for her family. Nonetheless, I still think we all should live our life to the max no matter what gets in the way, though I know how hard it can be to receive news like the ones my best friend told me. My heart goes out to him, his sister and family.....

"whatever tomorrow brings i'll be there."

much love,

L.

Sunny Saturday

Finally a beautiful weekend in the beautiful town of Santa Cruz, Ca. Today my dear friend lily and I went on a picnic (one which we had planned a long time ago). Though we knew we wanted to go on a picnic/photo shoot we didn't know exactly when since this quarter we've both been busy with school and what not. So, we decided to take a break from our studies and went to buy some Mexican food and then drove to Natural Bridges State Beach to hang out and take some pics! At first we were super cold and I don't know why we didn't take extra sweaters or a blanket but once we started moving around for our shoot, we started to warm up :)
SO, here are some pics.....

picnic basket that my dad got me at a garage sale! 

drinks

lily's super cute outfit 

my outfit 

owl tattoo :)

beautiful sun set 

lily's cool ring that her sister made

this ring lily made it!

and finally time go to 

overall i had a fun time hanging out with my dear friend, however, she hasn't been able to fix her bike so we couldn't bike there like we usually do but hopefully next time. for now, enjoy the rest of your weekend and make the best of it...and always, always, take lots of pics! :)

p.s: pictures taken by yours truly (& lily)..... oh and i MIGHT post some more pics later, but not sure yet.

xoxo,

L

Kurt Cobain's Birthday and other things

SO, yesterday was Kurt Cobain's birthday (Nirvana's front man) and I totally forgot even though I have a HUGE poster of him on my wall *nervous laugh* Today he would have been 45 years old but unfortunately he passed away at a very young age because of an overdose. However, I rather remember him for the great artist that he was; That's how we should remember people.

in short HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY Kurt! :)

Moving on...This year's resolution was the same one as last year and the year before that: work out & get in shape. The perks of living in a nice apartment area is having a gym across from my apartment--though relatively small. So far I have been to the gym less than 10 times. I don't know where this obsession of losing weight came from and it hurts to say that as much as I want to lose weight, i keep eating (my feelings) away but i just have to accept the fact that i'm never going to look the way models do because truth is i don't want to look like them. I want to look like myself but just be more healthy (and in shape). 

we can all look this fabulous! 

& this sexy ;)

for now, have a lovely night & remember to stay true to yourself no matter what

over & out,

L.

Weekend

This weekend was lots of fun! Though I didn't do anything over the top I enjoyed my time at home with family and best friends....here are some pictures :)

father & son (my bother & nephew)

pan dulce :)

my nephew seems to love playing with dog's food haha 

geico <3

dad doing the dishes :D

little sister's fashion statement.... i love that she's just being herself & not some one that she's not

her new bow...she loves bows!! 

danny being sneaky 

finally i got him to smile :)

best friends <3

dad's plants 

i hope all of you guys enjoyed the long weekend as much as i did! now let's hope for a fun rest of the week!

xoxo,

L.

Forgive & Forget

i feel like lately i've been holding on so many emotions & i'm ready to let them out. i still don't get how i can live with someone who is fake, antisocial and inconsiderate....at least that's the person she has become to me. i don't know if i should feel bad for not giving her the chance to talk to me but at the same time she did not take the initiative to talk to me and welcoming me into a new place that i'm supposed to call home. i am talking about one of my housemates. me and her don't really talk and when she talks to me she sounds so fake and i just don't try to keep up or get into a conversation. i am usually a friendly person and i don't know where all this anger is coming from. i am mad at myself, i am mad at the world and i am mad at the people who i love or once loved.

 i don't understand how someone you (or i) cared so much for just disappears and appears in my life whenever they want to. in this case i am talking about a specific someone. i need to learn how to forgive, move on and let go of someone who i thought was "mine." i think that made me so pessimistic when it comes to love. i also don't get how i can live life with that person in the back of my mind, i just don't get it but i think i will get it once i get answers to my questions but who am i kidding that is NEVER going to happen. i think so far in my 20 years in this living world i've only had one shot at love and i am not sure if i blew it but then again i was in high school, but isn't high school where you get into the whole dating scene? well that was totally NOT the case for me. i am  mad at that person even though i know i shouldn't and even\though i know i'm really not. i miss this person like crazy but i just don't show it. he's gone and i need to accept that. he is gone for good and he is probably living his life without me crossing his mind, not even for a second...of that i'm sure. i feel so pathetic but that's just me and i need to deal with it.

some people are just not worth it. some people are not worth my friendship. i am too nice to be surrounded by careless & selfish people. i have faith that one day i will find my kurt cobain kind of guy or my jim morrison or perhaps my tom gabel who knows. for now i'll just keep dreaming, dreaming until my dreams come true...hopefully <3

nite!

L.

Good bye January, Hello February

Hello bloggers/readers,

Can you believe we're on the month of February already? WELL, I really can't! January passed by like nothing and I must say, it was quite a month (though nothing too interesting happened). Every day that passes by I learn more and ore about myself and at times it frustrates me but at times I'm glad I get to find out new things about me. This year I hope to do a lot of things that I wished I did past years. So far, this new year has been great. I am enjoying my classes and I have no doubt in my mind what I want to do once I graduate. My education class has inspired me so much that I don't really mind that it's late in the afternoon and I have to go to class; I actually look forward to learning more about education though learning the TRUTH about it sometimes hurts. 

ANYWAY, I cannot cannot wait for spring break. My friend and I decided we needed to try/do different things this year SO this weekend we are booking out tickets to MIAMI and perhaps get tanned? :) I am super excited since I've never been outside of California. Hopefully this trip will bring us even more closer together plus getting away from the same environment, routine and people is very much needed. At this point, I don't care how much in debt I am going to be after I graduate because I want to be able to look back in time and say "Man, I had fun in college!" haha

I must say, I am very lucky to be surrounded by magnificent people (friends, family, peers etc). My life couldn't be any better without them, I love them all!! 

 

With that being said, I want you all to just enjoy life regardless of the up's and the down's because in reality, those up's and down's is what makes life that much more exciting and worth living. I know at times I take every day that goes by for granted but I learn from those mistakes. We're all human after all, right?

There's always that light at the end of the tunnel waiting for us...

xoxo,

L

I'm Losing Touch

I'm losing touch with my true self and I believe photography, writing & music will bring me back

I NEED to go back to this!! 

S.O.S!!!

-L.